Long Time No Talk!

I have been meaning to make a post to the blog for quite some time! It has been a very challenging few weeks since Christmas and I just haven't felt like writing. I had gastric bypass surgery three days before Christmas. At first, all went very well and I got released to come home on the evening of the 23rd. Christmas Eve found us at the ER and me not being able to stop getting sick! So....I spent Christmas in the hospital. Ugh! I felt so bad, I didn't really even feel like it was Christmas. I finally got to come home on the 26th. The next 4 weeks were very difficult. I struggled with constant nausea and pain. I ended up in the hospital one more time, this time with dehydration, on the 22nd of January. I definitely had moments of regret about what I had done to my body. But, after I got rehydrated, the nausea subsided and I began to be able to get in my daily requirements of fluid and protein and I felt MUCH better!! I am now learning day to day what my body handles food-wise and losing weight. Yea!! I have been overweight most of my life, with it just becoming more and more of a problem. When we were in the process of adopting Mandy Rose, it was a constant concern, until we got final approval from China, that someone would nix our attempt because we were too fat! Actually, if we had waited just a few months more, that is exactly what would have happened when China changed its requirement policies! I have pondered and researched GBS for the last 2-3 years. I made the decision that it was the right choice for me early in '09. I worked very hard the rest of the year meeting all the insurance and pre-surgery requirements. It is not a decision to be made lightly. But, I want to be healthy and I want to live as long as I possibly can for Mandy Rose. I also, frankly, want to feel better in my own skin! Anyways, fast forward to today. I am feeling really good! I am happy that I made this decision for myself and for my daughter. I look forward to being more active with her. I look forward to being around for a long, long time!!